TTUT-Puppy Cuddles and a Welcome Distraction

Nothing is terrible except fear itself.-Francis Bacon

with Impulsive Addict and Seriously Shawn

This week marks the point of loss for me. We lost Roo when I was 19 weeks, 2 days. I am exactly that far along in my pregnancy with Piglet as of today. It is a relief to hit this milestone, but it has not come without fear and frustrations. I started spotting on Friday and Saturday, very lightly, but enough to make me freak out. I haven’t had any pain, so I knew it was probably nothing, but the timing couldn’t have been worse.

I contacted my Dr. who believes it was from the internal exam he had to do on Thursday, and he reassured me that all was well with the baby. But he did promise to see me this Thursday, even though I’m not due for another checkup until the following week. I love that he respects my fears and what I’m going through, and is quick to accommodate me and reassure me. I really feel that I have the best team of doctors and nurses in my corner, and they will do everything they can for Piglet and me.

So Saturday when Match did his overnight overtime shift, I needed some distraction. My good friend Miss PhD came to the rescue, armed with her adorable new furbaby, this lil puffball Australian Sheppard puppy, who I will just call Fluff on the blog (she has a much cuter name, but I’m respecting her privacy).

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Monkey was so good with her, and I was proud of him for being so patient with this 3 month old pup.
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Fluff was the perfect cure for my worries, and for an evening I didn’t over think or stress about lil Piglet. Instead I got my fill of puppy cuddles and girl talk with Miss PhD. We made under cooked brownies and ate til we were stuffed. It was such a fun night!

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And the best part? While we were sitting on the couch watching a movie, my belly full of brownie, Piglet gave me a very distinctive kick. It was like he was saying, “I’m good in here mama, don’t worry.” 🙂

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Since Saturday I’ve felt pretty good, though I know the battles with these fears will continue throughout this pregnancy. It’s only natural for me to worry, especially when I do keep experiencing spotting. But luckily no pain or cramping, and thank god no heavy bleeding. The Dr seems to think all is well, and that my body is just sensitive and tend to spot from exams (lucky me!). I am grateful that I haven’t allowed the fears to take complete control, and I refuse to let them. I can get scared, acknowledge that fear, and then let it go. I refuse to let it overshadow the joys I feel during this pregnancy. I just keep visualizing that healthy baby boy in my arms early this summer, and I know it will be so.

2012 Review Extravaganza-Week 4

Lily: Hey baby, how’d it go?
Marshall: Lily, this year, this nasty schoolyard bully of a year will not stop punching me in the face. How did we kick off 2011? My dad died. And now, after five months of unemployment, I just blew my dream job. Good news is, in a few seconds, I’m gonna start heaving my guts out because that’s what life is to me now: just losing what’s inside until I’m just empty.
Lily: Baby, come here.
Marshall: I just want to shut my eyes for a few seconds before it starts.[Marshall goes to his bedroom and lies down.]
Future Ted: And Marshall slept…[the set darkens and then lights up again] All night.[Marshall wakes up to find out that he hadn’t gotten sick at all. In a later scene, Lily comes into the room]Marshall: Lily, it’s a miracle! I didn’t get sick! I-I-I didn’t get sick.
Lily: I know, baby. [reveals a pregnancy tester in her hands] … I’m pregnant.

We’re in the last week of the 2012 Review Extravaganza. Don’t forget to visit my wonderful co-hosts (just click on their names) Lourie-CA Girl; MiMi-Living in France; Nicole-Life’s a Beach; Emmy Mommy; Janette-Johanson Journey.
For a reminder of the rules and all of the fabulous prizes, go HERE. This week we are reviewing October, November and December, and also listing 5 Goals/Hopes for the new year.

October:

Miss PhD moved nearby, and I was overjoyed to have my close friend here. Match and I visited the pumpkin patch and kicked off one of my favorite seasons, Fall. I announced our Rainbow baby, Piglet on the blog, giving you all a reason to break out the fuente cigars to celebrate along with us!

Janette and I hosted a fun little giveaway on our blogs, and I reached the 8 week first small milestone of my new pregnancy. 

and I posted about the many things I had to smile about in October.

We had a great Halloween party

November:

We went to many doctors appointments and got to see our Piglet growing along nicely. My parents came to visit, and we got a major project done on the house.

We had a great Thanksgiving with Match’s family and enjoyed telling everyone about Piglet. We announced our Rainbow pregnancy to the rest of the world, and reached the 12 week mark and the second pregnancy milestone.

We had our NT scan and found out we’re most likely having a boy!

December:

I finally finished the nursery tree.

We experienced the magic of the Christmas season.

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I reached 15 weeks, started my progesterone shots, and the Dr. confirmed that this Piglet is a boy.

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We celebrated Christmas, both at home and with the inlaws.

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 5 Goals/Hopes for 2013:

1. Deliver my healthy bouncing baby boy in late May or early June, FULL TERM hopefully, and be able to take this baby home.

2. Get back in pre-baby shape before the end of the year. I think 6 months isn’t too lofty of a goal. Even if I don’t get back into perfect shape, so long as I get back into an exercise routine I’ll be happy.

3. Keep up with blogging even with a newborn. I know this one won’t be easy, but I’m going to do my very best.

4. Do all of the fun things we’ve always hoped to do as a little family:  family photos, the pumpkin patch, Thanksgiving, and of course Christmas. I cannot wait to celebrate all of the holidays as a family. I think we may even attempt camping!

5. Enjoy all of the milestones of our new baby, and also maintain my strong relationship with my hubby. I know I’ll have moments, and I’m sure we’ll both be exhausted, but we’ve been through hell and back, and I know we’re going to greet those sleepless nights with gratitude. We’re a  great team, and I can’t wait to see what 2013 has in store for us.



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