Every Relationship is an Experiment

The good news and bad news about chemistry is that we’ll never fully understand how it works. Every relationship is an experiment; you never know exactly what you’ll get. Some people bring out a side of you that you didn’t know you had. Some people remind you that your story isn’t over. Some people surprise you. And once in a while, you surprise yourself. And, although all relationships require compromise, sometimes you get more, not less. And sometimes, you can’t get more. Sometimes what you had is gone forever. And, although it’s painful, you have to find the strength to go on, to keep searching for the love, for that one perfect ingredient. No matter how far or how deep you have to go to find it. -Marin, Men in Trees

After an excruciating couple of days, I finally got a call from The Potential Guy. He called on Wednesday and suggested a coffee date for Thursday. He was as bubbly and happy as ever, but I couldn’t shake the feeling that something was wrong. That feeling got stronger when he suggested we meet there. Up till yesterday he had picked me up for each date. Then he texted me instead of calling to confirm our date plans. I kept trying to convince myself that I condemn guys before they even commit the crime, and the doubts were all in my head, yet all day I couldn’t shake that feeling.

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Yes, No, I Don’t Know

Ted: I’m crazy about you. I think we should be together. What do you say?
Robin: Yes. No. I don’t know.
Ted: Those are the 3 options.
How I Met Your Mother

Yesterday was my third date with The Potential Guy. We had talked Friday and then again Saturday. Even our phone conversations are easy going and light hearted, just like him. He came up with the idea of hiking, something I love to do. You know how after you hook up with someone and then see them again there is that awkward moment? You wonder, are they going to kiss me to break the tension or are we going to pretend we didn’t hook up and act normal? Do I hug him, do I touch him, or do I just stand there like an idiot and grin? Well he fixed that tense moment by hugging me and then giving me a huge kiss. We held hands on the way to the park, and all along the path we hiked. We had great talks, and we kissed and cuddled.

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A Good Game of Racquetball

Monica: So, can we still be friends and have sex?
Richard: Sure, it’ll just be something we do together, like racquetball. -Friends

I was pretty smiley all day Thursday after my date with PG, but I was trying to snap out of it. I was freaked out about liking someone too soon, and about getting attached. So I went over to Friend Zone and Birthday Twin’s house and made the boys dinner. It was good to be distracted, because already I was hoping Potential would call me. Birthday Twin gave me a backrub and I attempted to put Potential out of my mind. Friend Zone had told me in an earlier phone conversation that it was ok to date Birthday Twin if I wanted. He said he could tell there was chemistry between us, and he wouldn’t stop it. I thought that was big of him, but I couldn’t help feeling a little bad. I didn’t intend to do anything with BT, but the wine went to my head. One minute we were relaxing and talking, the next thing I knew we were in his room kissing and cuddling.

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Life Without a Safety Net

When you’re young, your whole life is about the pursuit of fun. Then, you grow up and learn to be cautious. You could break a bone or a heart. You look before you leap and sometimes you don’t leap at all because there’s not always someone there to catch you. And in life, there’s no safety net. When did it stop being fun and start being scary? -Carrie, Sex and the City

Last night I went on my second date with The Potential Guy. It’s funny-he looked even more good looking than he did when I first met him. I noticed that his eyes are brown but they are circled with green. He just has this interesting look that made me happy he was taking me out. The thing I like the most so far with him is how positive his energy is. He just makes me laugh and grin the whole time we’re hanging out. I forget to be nervous, I forget anything but having a good time.

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Testosterone and the French Kiss

‘Stop being so testosteroney!’
‘Which, by the way, is the real San Francisco treat.’
– Phoebe and Chandler, Friends

At a game night with friends last night, I met The French Guy. He was sweet, kind of cute, and smart. He flirted like crazy with me, and I thought it would be fun to go out with him. I was determined not to make the same mistakes I always do with guys. I find a great new guy, and I fixate. I don’t see what else is out there and date around, keep things casual. That way I’m not devastated if the guy doesn’t want more.

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