Maybe all men are a drug. Sometimes they bring you down and sometimes, like now, they get you so high.-Carrie, Sex and the City
Last night I hung out with PG on what was supposed to be a non-date. We were going to get together and make dinner and just hang out as friends. It started out innocently enough. He looked great as always, so that was tough to deal with, but I put it out of my head. We were supposed to cook dinner together, but I decided to use this new friendship roll to my advantage.
Elliot: Problem is that we already know that we don’t work as a couple. J.D.: Oh, we’re a train wreck. Elliot: So we can’t keep doing this. J.D.: Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa. Hello, and whoa! Elliot: J.D., it’s just sex. J.D.: Look, Elliot, we’re adults. I don’t think we have to apologize for enjoying what we’re doing. J.D.’s Narration: And that’s when she said the words every man is dying to hear. Elliot: I guess we could just be sex buddies. J.D.: If you want..
Last night I was kind of bummed out about the whole PG thing. I mean, I’m glad he’s so upfront with me. At the same time I am disappointed, and a pick me up was more than necessary. Birthday Twin came through for me, and we had a great night together hanging out and cheering each other up. I don’t know if I mentioned this before, but I’ve had a history of stress issues, including stomach troubles and panic attacks. I’ve been fortune enough to learn how control some of the anxiety, and my stress management has been much better. Well one of the things Birthday Twin and I have in common is anxiety and worry. He came to me last night after being plagued with panic attacks all day. I felt so bad for him, and it was nice that I was able to be there. I like that he can come to me because he knows I’ve been through it.
The good news and bad news about chemistry is that we’ll never fully understand how it works. Every relationship is an experiment; you never know exactly what you’ll get. Some people bring out a side of you that you didn’t know you had. Some people remind you that your story isn’t over. Some people surprise you. And once in a while, you surprise yourself. And, although all relationships require compromise, sometimes you get more, not less. And sometimes, you can’t get more. Sometimes what you had is gone forever. And, although it’s painful, you have to find the strength to go on, to keep searching for the love, for that one perfect ingredient. No matter how far or how deep you have to go to find it. -Marin, Men in Trees
After an excruciating couple of days, I finally got a call from The Potential Guy. He called on Wednesday and suggested a coffee date for Thursday. He was as bubbly and happy as ever, but I couldn’t shake the feeling that something was wrong. That feeling got stronger when he suggested we meet there. Up till yesterday he had picked me up for each date. Then he texted me instead of calling to confirm our date plans. I kept trying to convince myself that I condemn guys before they even commit the crime, and the doubts were all in my head, yet all day I couldn’t shake that feeling.
Ted: I’m crazy about you. I think we should be together. What do you say? Robin: Yes. No. I don’t know. Ted: Those are the 3 options.
–How I Met Your Mother
Yesterday was my third date with The Potential Guy. We had talked Friday and then again Saturday. Even our phone conversations are easy going and light hearted, just like him. He came up with the idea of hiking, something I love to do. You know how after you hook up with someone and then see them again there is that awkward moment? You wonder, are they going to kiss me to break the tension or are we going to pretend we didn’t hook up and act normal? Do I hug him, do I touch him, or do I just stand there like an idiot and grin? Well he fixed that tense moment by hugging me and then giving me a huge kiss. We held hands on the way to the park, and all along the path we hiked. We had great talks, and we kissed and cuddled.
Monica: So, can we still be friends and have sex? Richard: Sure, it’ll just be something we do together, like racquetball. -Friends
I was pretty smiley all day Thursday after my date with PG, but I was trying to snap out of it. I was freaked out about liking someone too soon, and about getting attached. So I went over to Friend Zone and Birthday Twin’s house and made the boys dinner. It was good to be distracted, because already I was hoping Potential would call me. Birthday Twin gave me a backrub and I attempted to put Potential out of my mind. Friend Zone had told me in an earlier phone conversation that it was ok to date Birthday Twin if I wanted. He said he could tell there was chemistry between us, and he wouldn’t stop it. I thought that was big of him, but I couldn’t help feeling a little bad. I didn’t intend to do anything with BT, but the wine went to my head. One minute we were relaxing and talking, the next thing I knew we were in his room kissing and cuddling.