Trish: [sniffing] Do you smell that? Marshall: No. Trish: Smells like there’s a little bitch in my gym. Are you being a little bitch in my gym? Marshall: No. Trish: Then get on the floor and give me a hundred!-How I Met Your Mother

 with Impulsive Addict and Seriously Shawn.

• First off I can’t believe I didn’t post for a whole week. Holy crow that’s a long time for me. I was caught up with a busy whirlwind week and weekend.
• I’ve started working out again and instead of spending my days inside, I’ve been lacing up my running shoes and hitting the pavement. I can’t tell you how DAMN GOOD it feels to exercise again. I’m starting to get my body back, and I feel more like myself than I have in months. This past week has been the first week I could jog without pain in my lower abdomen/uterus, and it felt so so good to get back out there.

• My goal is to get in the best shape I possibly can before we start trying for our next baby. I want to have a strong, healthy core. The endorphin kick I get doesn’t hurt either. 
• This past Friday Match and I went to watch his fellow SERT team members (Sheriff Emergency Response Team) compete in a competition against other SERT team members from different departments. Match was sad that he couldn’t compete, but because he’d missed so many practices because of bereavement, he couldn’t participate. I could tell it was killing him. Hopefully next year!

•  It was really exciting to watch them compete, and I was blown away by the women on the teams. Here they were, doing the exact same events as the men, and some were outdoing them. These women are seriously hardcore. I’m totally inspired to kick up my workouts a notch. If they can scale 8 foot walls, run, lift super heavy steel pipes, and go through obstacle courses, then I can make it through my 10 min ab workout video. NO EXCUSES!

• The weekend went by way too fast. Match only really had one day off, since he was busy helping out with the SERT team all Friday. Saturday was spent snuggling on the couch and relaxing.
• Sunday I had a down day. One where I woke up so sad and missing Roo so much it made my chest ache. My solution for days like this is to head to yard work. You’d be amazed at how therapeutic pulling on stubborn weeds can be. I also mowed the lawn. I’ve never operated a lawn mower. I may have missed a few spots, but I was pretty proud of myself.
• Yesterday I got to spend the day with Good Wife and her 15 week old twin boys. I went with them to check out a home they’re hoping to rent in their hometown, about an hour and a half from us. They are so much cuteness, but so much work! I  don’t know how she does it every day. When one stopped crying, the other would start! I had fun being mommy’s helper. It was so nice holding sweet snuggly babies all day.
• When we got back, Match was awake and helped out with a feeding. Now isn’t this just a precious sight? He’s a total natural.

So what’s new with you? Are you taking advantage of that beautiful sunshine and getting out of the house too?

If there’s a crisis you don’t freeze. You move forward. You get the rest of us to move forward. Because you’ve seen worse. You’ve survived worse. And you know we’ll survive too. You say you’re dark and twisty. It’s not a flaw. It’s a strength. It makes you who you are. -Derek, Grey’s Anatomy

Match and I headed up to the Oregon coast to see my family last week. We wanted to get out of town and clear our heads, and also see my parents. I think mostly we just wanted to escape. We broke the trip up into two days, with Match fishing along the way. I enjoyed taking pictures of him, sight seeing with Monkey, and re-reading Catching Fire.

Doesn’t Match look so cute in his waders? I think they’re adorable.

Monkey and I walked across the famous sundial bridge in Redding while Match fished in the river below.

We spent the night in a hotel in Mt. Shasta, and then spent the next day fishing some more before arriving in town that night.

Once we crossed the border into Oregon we saw the manbulance and I couldn’t help but crack up.

My mom and I cautiously tiptoed around each other, not quite sure how to be. I think she was expecting me to fall to pieces; I was determined to stay strong. It was not an easy visit for either of us. More on that later.

The first day Match and I went to the beach. It was a hard day for both of us. I think we both couldn’t stop focusing on who wasn’t there with us. Neither of us expected our next trip up to Oregon to be without Roo.

We did do two things specifically for Roo on the trip. The first was planting a tree in Roo’s honor-a gift from Geeky and her husband. We planted it at my parents house, so she will always have a special place at Gamma and Popa’s house.

The second was to for me to explain the amazing gift that my sweet friends gave us for Roo, and to present the grandparents with their scrolls with Roo’s star coordinates.

The grandparents all loved the star, and were blown away by the thoughtfulness of my friends. Match’s mom then surprised me with a gift as well. It is a lotus flower necklace that symbolizes rebirth, fertility, and rising up from the darkness within. It was so thoughtful and I love it.

But the theme of our trip wasn’t on dwelling, but on moving forward. We can’t live in the past, or be stuck in that dark and twisted place, crying over what we’ve lost, and what will never be. All we can do is count every single amazing blessing that we have and be so so grateful for that.

[As a joke on Kevin, Ed and Eddy announce a booster shot for the school. Upon hearing this and seeing some of Eddy's mind games, Kevin collapses]
Jimmy: KEVIN FAINTED!!
Nazz [to Kevin]: Dude, are you okay? -Ed, Edd, ‘n Eddy

I’m linking up with Impulsive Addict and Seriously Shawn.

This past Wednesday I was doing my usual thing: puttering around the house, doing some laundry, blogging, tidying up the house, when Match called. He had been at a conference for work, so I assumed he was calling during the lunch break.

DG: “Hey sweetie what’s up?”

Match: “I’m in an ambulance. I’m on my way to the hospital right now.”

DG: blood running cold. “What happened? Oh my god are you okay?”

Match: “Yeah, I’m fine I guess I just passed out. They’re taking me to the hospital to run some tests. Don’t worry, I’m sure it’s fine.”

Yeah right don’t worry. Was he kidding? He insisted that I didn’t need to drive to the hospital to meet him, and that he would call me back when he knew more. I immediately got dressed and headed out the door, trying my best not to overreact. I called his coworker, who told me that they had been sitting in a lecture, and then were walking to lunch when Match said he felt like he was going to pass out, and the next thing he knew, he was on the ground. He tried to sound reassuring but I was pretty shook up.

I called my Pops who talked me down and said not to think the worst. He said he probably just had low blood sugar and that it wasn’t a big deal. I called Match again and told him I was on my way to the hospital. He insisted that I don’t drive all the way there (40 minutes) and that there was no reason to worry. So instead I ran errands, rather than sitting at home pacing. I tried to keep busy but I kept checking my phone every few minutes.

What felt like hours later he called me back to let me know that he was going back to work, and that his vitals were fine. He had low blood pressure, and a low heart rate, but they said this was because he is in excellent shape. They were as stumped as he was by what had happened.

When Match got home that night I grabbed him in a bear hug and cried into his chest for a good five minutes. I was so relieved that he was okay, but I was worried too. What the heck would cause an extremely healthy 28 year old, whose blood sugar turned out to be fine, to just randomly pass out? He told me more details after I’d calmed down. He said when he woke up he had no idea where he was, and he didn’t recognize any of his coworkers. He was a little freaked out too, and he agreed that we should follow up with his regular doctor.

He went in for tests on Friday, and the results were that he is as healthy as a professional marathon runner. While it’s great news, it’s frustrating to not know the cause of the fainting, and his dizziness and headaches. He’s getting a cat scan done, mostly to appease me because I worry. Hopefully it was all just a freak experience. I’m just so relieved it didn’t happen while he was working in the jail. Can you imagine? I’m so grateful he wasn’t there where he could have banged his head on the deputy roll top desks or worse…in a cell alone with an inmate. The idea sends a chill up my spine.

Now that we know he’s probably just fine, we can laugh about it. I teased him that he’s having hysterical pregnancy symptoms and trying to steal my limelight.

Marshall: Listen, I’ve been thinking a lot about what you said yesterday on how we all are going to die.
Cootes: Oh, I’m not gonna die. I’ve bought a mine shaft in Colorado. I spent the past six months stocking it with canned goods, assault rifles, and all five seasons of Friday Night Lights.
Marshall: First of all, you can skip season 2. Second of all, after our talk, I came pretty close to giving up myself, but then I went to the doctor with my wife, and I saw this. [shows Garrison ultrasound footage on laptop]Cootes: Boy or girl?
Marshall: I don’t know, but I know I sure as hell can’t give up now. So if you’re looking for someone to hold one end of the limbo stick, you got the wrong guy. You know why?
Cootes: ‘Cause you’re three feet taller than everyone in this office?
Marshall: No because if I’m going to work here, then first thing tomorrow, I’m going down to Gruber Pharmaceuticals and rejecting our offer – even if I have to do it myself. -How I Met Your Mother

Last Monday Match said, “I want to do something for you.” So he had me sit down in his comfy man chair, pulled up a stool, and proceeded to give me the most amazing foot rub. A girl could get used to this!

Then that Tuesday we got to see our little Roo. To say that Roo put on a show for us would be putting it mildly. It started off with Roo being in a full on head stand, then a little bit of wiggling, and some feet fluttering. Then Roo do some quick jabs, just like a little boxer. We were cracking up from our little baby’s antics. After awhile Roo started to do spins and kicking legs wildly, followed by fist pumps. It was as if the little one was rocking out to the beat. Match grabbed my hand and we both just sat there mesmerized. The ultrasound was over far too quickly for us, but the tech did give us pictures as a keep sake. I just wish we could have taken video, because it truly was amazing.

Unfortunately the tech refused to even venture a guess at the gender. I knew it was super early, but Walking Couple got our hopes up when they said the tech told them at their 12 week NT scan. The tech did say that I’m 13 weeks, 4 days, just as I thought I was, and contrary to what the jerkface OB thought I was. Yay!

This past Wednesday I had my doctor’s visit with my new OBGYN, and she is wonderful! I’m so happy I switched doctors. She also took me off pelvic rest and said everything looks great. HURRAY! Just in time for vacation, which we are headed for today! We also made our appointment for our anatomy scan next month. We officially find out if Roo is a little boy or a little girl on April 20th. I am so excited!!

It’s bad guys. Momma needs her sugar. -Lily, How I Met Your Mother

Today I’m checking in with the ever fabulous: Impulsive Addict and Seriously Shawn

What’s going on in my world:

Not a whole lot lately, other than crafting crafting crafting. I’m almost done with the stocking. Then I can get started on the mural for Roo’s room. YAY.

I’ll give you a sneak peak at the growth chart I want to do. I’m going to paint it in an espresso brown, and then where there’s yellow, I’ll make that either blue or pink, depending on what Roo turns out to be. Oh and I would never let my Roo climb up on the bed like that. That picture freaks me out.

My hubby sure knows the way to a pregnant lady’s heart. I woke up to find these on the counter yesterday.

He gets his full four days off this week. He’s been working tons of overtime and I MISS him. Yesterday we just lounged around the house and relaxed. Tonight we’re heading to Sonoma for a double date with Geeky and her Fireguy. Now that my morning sickness has disappeared I’m SO excited for some good food and great company.

In Roo news:

We have our detailed ultrasound on March 6th. It feels so far away. I’m so excited to see our little baby. Then we have our checkup on the 7th. I’m hoping the doc will take me off pelvic rest. TMI guys but it’s been way too long. Momma needs her sugar!