TTUT-Puppy Cuddles and a Welcome Distraction

Nothing is terrible except fear itself.-Francis Bacon

with Impulsive Addict and Seriously Shawn

This week marks the point of loss for me. We lost Roo when I was 19 weeks, 2 days. I am exactly that far along in my pregnancy with Piglet as of today. It is a relief to hit this milestone, but it has not come without fear and frustrations. I started spotting on Friday and Saturday, very lightly, but enough to make me freak out. I haven’t had any pain, so I knew it was probably nothing, but the timing couldn’t have been worse.

I contacted my Dr. who believes it was from the internal exam he had to do on Thursday, and he reassured me that all was well with the baby. But he did promise to see me this Thursday, even though I’m not due for another checkup until the following week. I love that he respects my fears and what I’m going through, and is quick to accommodate me and reassure me. I really feel that I have the best team of doctors and nurses in my corner, and they will do everything they can for Piglet and me.

So Saturday when Match did his overnight overtime shift, I needed some distraction. My good friend Miss PhD came to the rescue, armed with her adorable new furbaby, this lil puffball Australian Sheppard puppy, who I will just call Fluff on the blog (she has a much cuter name, but I’m respecting her privacy).

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Monkey was so good with her, and I was proud of him for being so patient with this 3 month old pup.
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Fluff was the perfect cure for my worries, and for an evening I didn’t over think or stress about lil Piglet. Instead I got my fill of puppy cuddles and girl talk with Miss PhD. We made under cooked brownies and ate til we were stuffed. It was such a fun night!

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And the best part? While we were sitting on the couch watching a movie, my belly full of brownie, Piglet gave me a very distinctive kick. It was like he was saying, “I’m good in here mama, don’t worry.” 🙂

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Since Saturday I’ve felt pretty good, though I know the battles with these fears will continue throughout this pregnancy. It’s only natural for me to worry, especially when I do keep experiencing spotting. But luckily no pain or cramping, and thank god no heavy bleeding. The Dr seems to think all is well, and that my body is just sensitive and tend to spot from exams (lucky me!). I am grateful that I haven’t allowed the fears to take complete control, and I refuse to let them. I can get scared, acknowledge that fear, and then let it go. I refuse to let it overshadow the joys I feel during this pregnancy. I just keep visualizing that healthy baby boy in my arms early this summer, and I know it will be so.

11 Comments

    Dandy

    Good for you! Congratulations on this milestone. It still feels like yesterday and I still hurt when I think about it but I’m so glad that things are going well this time around.

    And seriously that puppy is sooooo fluffy!

    Almost halfway there!

    Jenny

    Oh my goodness. No one deserves the stress and hurt that you’ve gone through. I’m glad you seem to be doing well. You WILL be holding your sweet baby healthy boy this summer 🙂

    And yes the puppy is adorable, as is Monkey 😉

    Misty

    I’m sorry you keep having these issues. I know it’s scary. Soon enough, Baby Boy Match will be here!

    phoebe

    undercooked brownies are the best… and i’m glad they (and of course that super adorbs puppy!!!) helped… i mean really. it’s chocolate (and cuteness). when does that not help!? lol. piglet must have really enjoyed. yay for first kick!!
    i’m sorry you keep having spotting issues too… but i’m glad that the dr. isn’t worried. i’m always sending good thoughts across the country to you 😉
    loooove the belly bump!!!

    Stacie

    I spotted pretty much the whole time with Elise and it was so nerve wracking. Those kicks sure do help make you feel better!

    Seriously SHawn

    I’m sure you are afraid, how could you not be, but you’re handeling it like a pro! What a great attitude, I love that you’re refusing to cave to the fear which would not allow you to enjoy the moment.

    I want that puppy!

    Thanks for linking up and I’ll let you know what’s up with TTUT as soon as I get a chance to talk to IA.

    Meghan Furst

    Monkey looks a bit miffed that you’re cuddling with Fluff.

    Connie Weiss

    That puppy is the cutest thing ever!!

    Glad you’re doing well.

    MiMi

    Oh sweet girl…what a crap time for something like that to happen. It happens SO often even with non “risky” pregnancies.
    It’s very scary, I know.
    That puppy though. Omagoodness!!!

    Emmy

    Yea! Glad you made it past this milestone date. And Fluff is so so cute!! Oh I would just want to cuddle and love on him, looks so soft!

    Janette @ www.thejohansonjourney.com

    Love that picture of you in your white shirt!! SO pretty!!! I think you are handling all of the hurdles and milestones of pregnancy so well and know this will be a great outcome!! Love the pup.. I am dyin’ to know the name. I want a puppy and a baby– but I’d settle for a puppy for now.

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