Rainbows

When a rainbow appears, it doesn’t mean the storm never happened or that the family is not still dealing with its aftermath. What it means is that something beautiful and full of light has appeared in the midst of the darkness and clouds. Storm clouds may still hover but the rainbow provides a counterbalance of color, energy and hope. -Unknown

It was September 24th, and I’d just woken up from a wonderful dream. All I remember was seeing Roo, and she was happy, and I felt such peace. It was like she was giving me her blessing. Not long after waking up, I was able to write this note to Match:

That positive is the darkest I’ve ever gotten, and guys, I’ve been pregnant 3 times in NINE months, so I know these things. This wasn’t the faint barely line of my chemical pregnancy. It wasn’t the thin but distinctive line from Roo. This was positive before the control line, as if to say, yes, this baby is STICKING.

When I woke up Match with the post it note, after his eyes adjusted, and I verified what he was reading with the test, he held me and said, “This is going to be different. I can feel it.”

We experienced two blissful weeks where I was able to continue working out, and I showed no signs of discomfort or issues, except for the typical first trimester sleepies.

Then, one day while doing yardwork, at about 6 weeks 5 days, I went potty and gasped. There was blood everywhere. We rushed to the ER, where we ended up in the exact same room I was in when I first went to the ER with Roo.
When we got the ultrasound, the tech wasn’t allowed to tell me anything good or bad. I pleaded with him, “we haven’t had a chance to get the ultrasound, can you just tell me if there’s a heartbeat?”

He just turned the monitor to me, and turned on the doppler. We saw the flicker, and that wonderful thump thump thump.

Then we had to wait another 20 minutes to hear from the doctor. He checked my cervix and it’s closed, good news. But the bad news is I have what’s called a subchorionic hemorrhage. It’s basically the gathering of blood between the membranes of the placenta and the uterus. There’s no known case, and there is no treatment. The blood clot can bleed out, or it can irritate the cervix and cause a placental tear. The good news is the hemorrhage is very small. So I was sent home, with instructions for pelvic rest and to avoid any strenuous activities.

Once I got home, I passed a huge, quarter sized clot, which scared me to death. But after reading about SCH, I found that it’s really common to pass clots. It is just the hemorrhage working its way out of my body.

Monday the 15th we went to the doctor, where she did another ultrasound, and we saw that the baby was growing right along schedule. She prescribed progesterone and said to continue to take it easy until further notice. The bleeding has all but stopped, and she reassured us that it was a very small SCH and will mostly resolve on its own.

The other crazy thing was that yolk sac in this really bad ultrasound picture makes it look like there are two babies. But the doc assured me that there is only one.

As of today, I’m 7 weeks, 3 days with our little Piglet. Happily growing in my belly.