MRI Results

Brooke: What a perfect day.Do you think I’ll be a good mom?
Julian: You’ll be an amazing mom.I’ll be grouchy and old.
Brooke: You’ll be wonderful.We’re gonna adopt a baby. –One Tree Hill

Friday I received the results from my MRI. They came back negative. What my doctor had seen as a septum on the hysteroscopy turned out to be a very small fibroid, which my doctor informed me wouldn’t have affected my pregnancy with Roo. I’m skeptical. I feel like something had to have caused me to go into labor suddenly at 19 weeks. Roo was fine-there was nothing physically wrong with her. She was developing on schedule. There had to be a reason I was bleeding heavily for two weeks before having her. But I know my doctor was thorough, and ran every test that she could, and for that I’m grateful.

So we are back to square one, with no answers. My doctor said when we are ready to start trying again I’ll be followed by her and the specialist we met with before. I guess that’s reassuring. But we’re both left feeling a little bit unnerved. Here we thought we had the answer, and not only that, but the solution. It made the idea of a future pregnancy seem less scary. I’m happy to know that we’ll have a great team who will monitor me closely next time around. But we’re both absolutely terrified that this could happen again.

Match was so supportive when I told him what the doctor reported. He was as disappointed as I was, but he was encouraging too. He said we can try again, and we can also look into possibly adopting. We don’t care how a child comes to us; we just want to have the opportunity to raise one or two. I love that he’s so understanding, and so willing to try other venues, no matter the challenges they bring, when we are ready to try for our family again. I’m so lucky to have such a supportive partner.

 

8 Comments

    Jessica

    I’m sorry, how frustrating! You guys are amazing, and you’re so luck y you have each other to lean on. I know you’ll make wonderful parents- soon!

    Jenny

    I’m so sorry. How frustrating this must be for you guys. 🙁

    Charlotte

    Awwww, I have been thinking so much about you and am so incredibly sorry I haven’t stopped by sooner. You’re always on my mind!

    I know this has to be incredibly frustrating and scary, not knowing what exactly caused all of this to happen. And sometimes we put our faith in people and they let us down… but in this case, it far exceeds that feeling of disappointment.

    At the same time, the fact that your hubby is so willing to do all he can to ensure you both have a baby… well, that’s just a beautiful thing to behold. It makes me really value your strength as a couple and it proves that there ARE good guys left in this world.

    Off to catch up a bit now.

    Julia

    I’m so sorry. I cannot imagine. You are being incredibly brave about it! I’m so glad you and your husband have each other.

    Impulsive Addict

    I already knew this but it’s still hard to read. I was hoping this was the answer and solution. I will keep you in my prayers (as always) for a very healthy upcoming pregnancy! Love you!!

    Emmy

    Shoot- this was not the answer we wanted. Hopefully next time it will all jus work out. And yes, you do have a wonderful husband who is there for you and supports you.

    MiMi

    Well crap.
    The only thing I can think is that there are just these times that that kind of horribleness happens and it never happens again. And they never know why.

    hotpants4979@gmail.com

    I know not having a definitive answer sucks. Hopefully it was just a one time fluke sort of thing.

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