Hysteroscopy and Possible Answers

Joey: Ross, did you really read all these baby books?
Ross: Yup! You could plunk me down in the middle of any woman’s uterus, no compass, and I can find my way out of there like [snaps fingers] that.-Friends

Wednesday was my hysteroscopy. I was so nervous when I got to the doctor’s office. My hands wouldn’t stop sweating, wouldn’t stop shaking. I was so nervous I couldn’t even pee for the urine sample! If you know anything about me and my tiny bladder, you know this was a big deal.

The procedure itself was pretty painful. Just know when a doctor tells you there will be “slight discomfort” it means it will hurt like a BITCH. At one point I was wishing I’d signed up for online life insurance because I was convinced I was going to die. The worst part was when the CO2 gas they pumped into my uterus caused extreme nerve pain. It felt just like my back labor. All of the pain was centered into my back.

I was distracted by my awesome team. My OB is really personable, and my nurse is hilarious. They kept me pretty distracted, and then once the camera was inserted, I was fixated on my uterus. “It’s not everyday you can say you looked at the inside of your uterus” my OB joked. I told her how I’m a bit of a science nerd, and I’d been researching pictures of uterine abnormalities. So when the camera passed over it, I recognized it for what it was. “Is that a septum?” I asked her. “You are a science nerd!” She’d replied. She couldn’t confirm it with absolute certainty, but she said she was fairly certain that’s exactly what I have.

She attempted to do another type of hysteroscopy, where they insert saline into the uterus to get a clearer image. By that time my pesky bladder decides now is the time to be full, so it was causing pain. The saline was also super painful, as was the pain of the gas leaving my body. It causes shoulder pain and pinching, and the cramping in my uterus and bajingo were intense. So finally, when I was whimpering with tears streaming down my face, she called it a day. She referred me to a specialist, and said she’s pretty sure he will agree with her findings.

So what does all of this mean? Well, it means potential answers. My doctor’s theory is that my placenta attached to the uterine septum, and didn’t get a proper hold. This eventually caused a gradual placental tear as Roo got bigger. It would explain the bleeding and then ultimately the preterm labor. If I do have the septum, then a simple surgery could remove it. I’ve been reading up on this uterine abnormality, and the success rate of the surgery is really encouraging. Many women go on to have NORMAL pregnancies. How amazing would that be?

I came home to a yummy homecooked meal from Match. He had prescription motrin ready for me, and my comfiest pajamas and gave me backrubs while I complained of the residual cramping pain. We talked about the doctor’s findings, and the ray of hope it has given us.

This hope is of course bittersweet. If only we could have found about this before Roo, then maybe I’d still be pregnant. But the truth is most uterine septums aren’t ever detected until after a pregnancy loss. So maybe Roo’s purpose was to help us learn about my abnormal uterus, so that her future siblings can be born. I like to think that she was happy to help.

10 Comments

    phoebe

    dare i say this is good news? that hopefully there will be a ‘cure’? i’m thinking positive thoughts for you. do you watch g&b on style? her attempt at getting preggers saved her life and detected early bc… i’m a firm believer that (sometimes sadly) things happen for a reason. but! here is to getting better and having that delicious family 🙂

    VandyJ

    Having an answer or reason really does help. Hoping that you can get your fix and get on with family making soon.

    Dandy

    Well this is an awesome step. You are so brave- the procedure sounds awful! What a woman will do for her children.

    Thank you little Roo for all you have done and for everything you mean to so many of us.

    Ruth Llewellyn

    Hey Mrs Match, 2nd time i’ve messaged you in about 4 years of following your blog. I was so touched my your story of losing Roo, I shared my families poem, which my dad route Webern of kittel stuff i’m going through at the mo defo makes me think, que sera sera. I’ve even got it tattooed on my foot. Would love to chat further. I’m all the way in Manchester, England

    Ruth Llewellyn

    So sorry. I’m typing this on my phone and it sucks. My message is not clear at all. Thought it would be nice to chat to someone from the other side of the world who has had a similar experience. get in touch if you feel the same. Find me on Facebook, Ruth Llewellyn, Manchester, England. Lots of love x x x

    er Meghan Furst

    Very interesting … bit of a nerd Soo sorry you had to go through all that pain. At least they’ll put you to sleep for the upcoming surgery.

    MiMi

    It just seems like they would have seen that during the pregnancy?? Maybe not. So frustrating.

    Bless

    You are one brave lady… Match is so lucky to have you, and you are so lucky to have him.

    Jenny

    Glad to hear you have possible answers. I hope the specialist is able to confirm it and that it will be fixed.

    Emmy Mom

    Oh I hope this is it and they are able to take care of it- that would be such a great answer.

Your comments make my day!