The Trip Home and Moving Forward

If there’s a crisis you don’t freeze. You move forward. You get the rest of us to move forward. Because you’ve seen worse. You’ve survived worse. And you know we’ll survive too. You say you’re dark and twisty. It’s not a flaw. It’s a strength. It makes you who you are. -Derek, Grey’s Anatomy

Match and I headed up to the Oregon coast to see my family last week. We wanted to get out of town and clear our heads, and also see my parents. I think mostly we just wanted to escape. We broke the trip up into two days, with Match fishing along the way. I enjoyed taking pictures of him, sight seeing with Monkey, and re-reading Catching Fire.

Doesn’t Match look so cute in his waders? I think they’re adorable.

Monkey and I walked across the famous sundial bridge in Redding while Match fished in the river below.

We spent the night in a hotel in Mt. Shasta, and then spent the next day fishing some more before arriving in town that night.

Once we crossed the border into Oregon we saw the manbulance and I couldn’t help but crack up.

My mom and I cautiously tiptoed around each other, not quite sure how to be. I think she was expecting me to fall to pieces; I was determined to stay strong. It was not an easy visit for either of us. More on that later.

The first day Match and I went to the beach. It was a hard day for both of us. I think we both couldn’t stop focusing on who wasn’t there with us. Neither of us expected our next trip up to Oregon to be without Roo.

We did do two things specifically for Roo on the trip. The first was planting a tree in Roo’s honor-a gift from Geeky and her husband. We planted it at my parents house, so she will always have a special place at Gamma and Popa’s house.

The second was to for me to explain the amazing gift that my sweet friends gave us for Roo, and to present the grandparents with their scrolls with Roo’s star coordinates.

The grandparents all loved the star, and were blown away by the thoughtfulness of my friends. Match’s mom then surprised me with a gift as well. It is a lotus flower necklace that symbolizes rebirth, fertility, and rising up from the darkness within. It was so thoughtful and I love it.

But the theme of our trip wasn’t on dwelling, but on moving forward. We can’t live in the past, or be stuck in that dark and twisted place, crying over what we’ve lost, and what will never be. All we can do is count every single amazing blessing that we have and be so so grateful for that.