But Sock

Robin Scherbatsky: But what about all the things we talked about?
Lily Aldrin: But… but sock!
Robin Scherbatsky: What about Marshall working all the time?
Lily Aldrin: But sock!
Robin Scherbatsky: What about Project Lily?
Lily Aldrin: It’s got little fishies on it!
Robin Scherbatsky: All this discussion, and a sock makes your decision for you? –How I Met Your Mother

It was December 30th, a Thursday. I had been feeling odd all week. I wasn’t sure if it was the remnants of the cold I’d had, or what, but I felt…different. Match took this picture at our family Christmas, and I joked around and stuck my belly out. Maybe I knew subconsciously then?

 

I promised myself I wouldn’t test this month until I was officially late. I’ve been guilty of making up symptoms and literally pissing money away on those sticks. I actually forgot about it completely and just relaxed the entire month. The night we had friends over to the house to test out our fireplace I had three beers over the course of the evening. After everyone left I curled up on the couch and kept dozing off, even though it was early for us, not even midnight. I looked at my calendar, and realized, oh wow I’m late! So I told Match I was going to bed, and headed upstairs and took a test. I’ve peed on countless sticks, but never, never has there been even the hint of a line. So when that faint line appeared, it may as well have been a flaming red banner. My hands started shaking and I rushed downstairs. Match didn’t even know I was testing, and as a joke he asked, “so is it positive?”

I ignored him and rushed to grab the gift I had been waiting nine months to give him. A set of newborn baby socks, as an inside joke from an episode of How I Met Your Mother that we are constantly quoting. He unwrapped them and said, seriously? Then he said, “Wait, you really just took a test? How did I guess that? I don’t believe you. Show me the test!”

So we rushed upstairs and looked together. “It’s positive!” I said with tears in my eyes. “It’s positive?” He asked, “That little line? Why isn’t it darker?” So I had to explain how they worked and promised to take another tomorrow to confirm.

I barely slept that night. I kept worrying that maybe it was all in my head, that I’d imagined the whole thing. There were also about a million thoughts running through my head about pregnancy in general. Fear, anxiety, guilt about those beers and the sushi from earlier in the week, excitement, overwhelming joy. That morning I jumped out of bed and took another test. This one was a lot less ambiguous.

Then Match started getting more excited, but he was scared too. Since then I’ve peed on one more stick, on January 1st. This one became positive almost the second I put it down, and there’s no denying that line.

I’m almost 2 months pregnant (a little over 7 weeks…oh how I loathe the week counting) and it’s still a little early to be blogging about it. But we heard the heartbeat from the doctor, and well,I just couldn’t stand not blogging about it. This is my diary and it’s all I’ve wanted to write about for weeks!

 We struggled with what to nickname our baby to be. Match came up with Roo, because I’m carrying around this little one in my “pouch”. It makes me smile because I think of Kanga and Roo from Winnie the Pooh. It still doesn’t feel real. Match and I are going to be parents. I’m going to be a mama. I can’t wait to meet you Roo!!

18 Comments

    j.

    congratulations to you and match! i’m so excited to read all about baby roo in the coming months!

    MiMi

    OMG!!! I’m SOOOOO excited for you!!!! YAYAYAYAAAAAAAAAY!!!! Can you tell?! Caps AND lots of !!!!
    Yes. The sock is freaking adorable and that’s a good reason for a decision. So there.

    Dandy

    OMG! I’M ACTUALLY CRYING! I’m so excited for you and don’t you worry I had Sangria the night before my positive test. Oh I can’t wait to hear all about it.

    OMG I’M SO EXCITED!

    Emmy

    Oh my gosh!!! Congrats!!! So so excited for you!! How awesome! Make sure you take monthly pics of your bumb you will be glad you did. Yea!!

    Brittany E.

    Yay! I’ve been waiting for you to announce it! I can’t wait to see what the next months bring for you and match. It’s going to be amazing!

    Jenny

    I don’t comment much, but OMG CONGRATULATIONS! I seriously got teary eye’d and goosebumps for you!

    Bless

    Super long time lurker here but I just wanted to say congratulations!! Very happy for you and Match!!!!!!

    Michelle

    OH MY GOD!!! Congratulations! I knew it as SOON as I saw the HIMYM title! This is so so so exciting. YAY!

    Impulsive Addict

    Yaaaaay!! I am soooo happy for you and I love how I knew about the “secret”. I’m a good secret-keeper, huh! Roo will be so loved and I know you will enjoy every phase of pregnancy. It’s an amazing journey. Blog about it. If you don’t, you will forget. I see some lurkers came out to wish you well. I love that!!

    xoxo

    Dawn @What's Around the Next Bend?

    SOOOO happy for you! I can remember that faintest of faint lines and not believing it was real. Congrats!!!

    Trinity

    SO EXCITING!! congrats to you! cute nickname too!

    hotpants™

    OMG!!!!! I am so so so happy for you both.

    Nancy

    you and Match will be wonderful parents, soooo happy for you both. When you are pregnant that line does appear quick….atta girl

    Nancy

    Kristy @PampersandPinot

    YAY! Nothing much more exciting than that! Congratulations. Enjoy your pregnancy – it can be an interesting time!

    Jessica

    Congratulations! I know how much this means to you guys, and I’m so excited for you! Roo is an awesome nickname. 🙂

    Janette

    HAPPPPPPPPPPPPPPIEST POST EVER!!! I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE this news!! CONGRATS!!! You deserve the BEST!! I can’t wait to follow you on this journey!!

    Becca@R Ww There Yet Mom?

    I am so so so stinkin excited for you!!! I can’t wait to see you go through this! So much fun!

    ~Becca

    jennykate

    AWWWWEEE!!! So, you’re around 8 weeks. That’s awesome! I should have bought stock in pg tests, because I spent a shitload of money on those things. I think I bought 8 and used them all “just to make sure”.

    I love “Roo”. Reminds me of Pooh too…so sweet!

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