Robin:Â [Downs drink] I can’t believe my baby sister is planning to lose her virginity to a douche with a faux-hawk. This can’t happen, you guys have help me talk her out of it. Marshall: A speech to talk a girl out of sex… Ted: …yeah I don’t have any of those. Barney: Discouraging premarital sex is against my religion. Robin: Please? I’m her older sister; I’m supposed to teach her how to make good and responsible decisions. Lily: It’s 2 o’clock and you’ve already had three Scotch and Sodas. Robin: That’s why I need your help! –How I Met Your Mother
Losing the big V. This story is pretty cringe worthy. I would love to hear your stories. I can look back and laugh now, but at the time, I was mortified!!
*Changes. A decision, so intimate. I am no longer innocent. * No, just incredibly dramatic.
-Metal Head and I have taken ourÂ relationshipÂ to the next level. I am no longer a virgin. Really, him? There were so many expectations, so manyÂ preconceivedÂ notions about what my first time would be like. Never did I imagine I’d be in the backseat of a regal, red-faced and embarrassed, handing my ID to a cop. Yes, you can go ahead and cringe. I’m blushing just thinking about it. We were at the beach lookout point and we got carried away. MH was the epitome of sweet and caring. I have never felt a pain so bad as that though. He was careful and yet it just hurt so bad! Then the cop pulled up. He was just making sure I wasn’t there against my will. Now this was possibly the most mortifying experience of my life, but it wasn’t all bad. MH proved to be everything I thought he was. Kind, gentle, compassionate. But I still felt pretty terrible about the whole experience. Ok, first, he wasn’t that gentle, because it HURT! And second, he wasn’t that compassionate. The back of a car for crying out loud. Caught by a COP?! So.Freaking.Terrible. We lived in a small town. Everyone knew about it the next day…
So today was much better. I came over to MH’s early in the morning, and this time we did things right. I consider it to be our real first time. I enjoyed myself but I couldn’t bring myself to relax completely. I think this whole experience is just so new and somewhat frightening that I just tensed. Now that the deed is done, our real test, or should I say mine, is to see if we can withstand it. Metal Head is acting the same, but to me he feels distant. After such an intimate moment, I think it made me oversensitive to him the rest of the day. But I trust us; I’m a lot more confident than I used to be, and I’m not going to get all spazztic and clingy on the poor boy. We have a very cool thing and I don’t regret making love with him at all. Making love?! I can’t think of anyone as understanding as he is.Â Right…with the head banger. The guy who instead of spooning after jumped up and started playing bass guitar. Yeah…that guy. Life is complicated, but I do know that I’m happy. I don’t think my relationship with MH will change at all. It’s great, relaxed. Oh you poor naive little girl. I wish I could hug you. Tune in next Saturday to read about how things most definitely changed for me and the Metal Head.