Waiting For My Calling

That was the year I got left at the altar, it was the year I got knocked out by a crazed bartender, the year I got fired, the year I got beat up by a goat, a girl goat at that, and damn it if it wasn’t the best year of my life. Because if any one of those things hadn’t happened, I never would’ve ended up in what turned out to be the best job I ever had. But more importantly, I wouldn’t have met your mother. Because as you know, she was in that class. Of course, that story is just beginning. -Ted, How I Met Your Mother

This week at work has been the slowest it’s been in months. I wish I could say it was nice, but it makes the day just drag by. Match has been feeling it too since he’s just doing his unpaid internship and waiting for his new job to give him a start date. They’re taking forever and it’s driving us both nuts. Match really wants us to move North, maybe to Oregon or even Washington, but there just aren’t any jobs there. I love our little duplex and I’m happy in the town we’re in, but I am definitely ready for a change of career.

I’m envious of Match because even though he doesn’t have the fire fighting job yet, he knows that’s what he wants to do.  I know he’ll get a paid firefighter job someday and all of his hard work and patience will pay off.

For me, I’m still not quite sure what it is that I want. I know what I don’t want-to work in IT sitting around waiting for the phone to ring. I also don’t see myself working in the field battling for hours and working long days without seeing my family. I look at my coworkers and see how unhappy most of them are, and it’s just not something I want for myself.

So what do I think I would enjoy? I like the idea of teaching, but I don’t know if it’s my calling. When I was little I thought my calling was to work with animals, and I even majored in Zoology in college. Then I actually tried it and it turns out it wasn’t really for me. So what is my calling? I know I’m great at cleaning and keeping house (and I actually enjoy it!) and I think I’ll one day be a good mom, but does that mean I should teach? I’m not really sure.

Does anyone else feel stuck in their job? Where you can’t leave yet but you want to? Do you feel like you have a calling? Or is work just work to you? I seem to be full of questions today. Maybe it’s because I have all of this free time at work. I would love to hear your thoughts on all of this, even if it’s to say you don’t know your calling either. 🙂

10 Comments

    phoebe

    yep! i’m totally there. i hate. hate. hate. hate my job. for now i’m stuck here… i need their help paying for school, so that in turn i can leave. great system, right? i’m sure one day (i’m sure soon) you’ll realize what your calling is. it took me 30 years to figure mine out… now let’s hope it’s the right calling, hahaha. good luck!! everything will work out.
    .-= phoebe´s last blog ..and i’m walking on sunshine…. =-.

    Salt

    I feel like I am one of the few people I know that actually LIKES their job. You’d be surprised at how many people out there feel the exact same way that you do about things. If I wasn’t a designer, I don’t know what else I would do!

    Even just taking a community college class or two in an area that you aren’t that familiar with might get you focused into a different direction.
    .-= Salt´s last blog ..It’s my 100th Post Party Giveaway!! Pants optional. =-.

    Angry Julie Monday

    I’ve been in my career field for almost 13 years. I’m completely burnt out. We’ve had to take pay cuts this yr, and everyone is on edge. Some days, I do want to move away from California to another state. But I know that the grass isn’t always greener. I wish you guys luck.
    .-= Angry Julie Monday´s last blog ..Getting My Fit On =-.

    Paige

    Just came by from SITS to say Hello! I hope you find the career of your dreams. Best wishes!
    .-= Paige´s last blog ..Cool contest I found to win free groceries for a year =-.

    Brittany E.

    That is always a scary thought, that you don’t know what you are going to do with your life. I think its almost like a crap shoot, you have to try it out to know. Yet it is even more complicated when you have to get an education first, because what if you change your mind? I think you’ll find it, and for whats its worth, I think you would be an awesome teacher.
    .-= Brittany E.´s last blog ..Honey, I Broke the Blog (Again) =-.

    Allison

    Thanks for stopping by on my SITS day I really appreciated it! Now I’m here to spread the comment-love!

    I LOVE the show quotes you use, very cool!
    .-= Allison´s last blog ..Well I thought THIS would be easier… =-.

    E

    I agree with you 100 percent. The job I’m at now was supposed to be temporary job. A stepping stone till I could find a better one, one more suited to my education, etc. But 2 years has passes and I’m with the economy the way it is I’m just thankful to have a job. But yes like you I feel like there has to be something else out there!
    .-= E´s last blog ..You Must First Let Go Before You Can Ever Move On =-.

    Krysten

    I miss my job. I miss having ANY job. Not having to go to work may sound fun but when you hit week two you kind of want to scream a little. I’m going insane.
    .-= Krysten´s last blog ..Yay Weekend! =-.

    Melissa

    Hi — I’ve missed your blog!! I loooove your ring photo! xoxo
    .-= Melissa´s last blog ..Have A Fantastic Weekend. =-.

    Lost_One

    Hello DG! I’ve enjoyed reading your blog for a few weeks now. I can’t remember how I found it, but I’m glad I did 🙂 Anyhow I am 30 yrs old and I STILL don’t know my calling. I can say that a good friend gave me this advice: He said look back on your jobs and see which one did you excel and enjoy most. I refuse to be a teacher and never thought that was my calling, BUT most of my jobs have involved children and teaching them something. I ran from it for so long, but I kept asking God to reveal my calling. I am pursuing my masters right now and I see so many people that need help. I don’t believe teaching (as in in a classroom) is my calling, but I have realized it has something to do with it. My friend also made me realize that life is not permanent. Sometimes for some people it will be forever changing and evolving. All of his advice helped me tremendously and I hope something I’ve said will help you 🙂

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