That was the year I got left at the altar, it was the year I got knocked out by a crazed bartender, the year I got fired, the year I got beat up by a goat, a girl goat at that, and damn it if it wasn’t the best year of my life. Because if any one of those things hadn’t happened, I never would’ve ended up in what turned out to be the best job I ever had. But more importantly, I wouldn’t have met your mother. Because as you know, she was in that class. Of course, that story is just beginning. -Ted, How I Met Your Mother
This week at work has been the slowest it’s been in months. I wish I could say it was nice, but it makes the day just drag by. Match has been feeling it too since he’s just doing his unpaid internship and waiting for his new job to give him a start date. They’re taking forever and it’s driving us both nuts. Match really wants us to move North, maybe to Oregon or even Washington, but there just aren’t any jobs there. I love our little duplex and I’m happy in the town we’re in, but I am definitely ready for a change of career.
I’m envious of Match because even though he doesn’t have the fire fighting job yet, he knows that’s what he wants to do.Â I know he’ll get a paid firefighter job someday and all of his hard work and patience will pay off.
For me, I’m still not quite sure what it is that I want. I know what I don’t want-to work in IT sitting around waiting for the phone to ring. I also don’t see myself working in the field battling for hours and working long days without seeing my family. I look at my coworkers and see how unhappy most of them are, and it’s just not something I want for myself.
So what do I think I would enjoy? I like the idea of teaching, but I don’t know if it’s my calling. When I was little I thought my calling was to work with animals, and I even majored in Zoology in college. Then I actually tried it and it turns out it wasn’t really for me. So what is my calling? I know I’m great at cleaning and keeping house (and I actually enjoy it!) and I think I’ll one day be a good mom, but does that mean I should teach? I’m not really sure.
Does anyone else feel stuck in their job? Where you can’t leave yet but you want to? Do you feel like you have a calling? Or is work just work to you? I seem to be full of questions today. Maybe it’s because I have all of this free time at work. I would love to hear your thoughts on all of this, even if it’s to say you don’t know your calling either. 🙂