Ted: I’m crazy about you. I think we should be together. What do you say?
Robin: Yes. No. I don’t know.
Ted: Those are the 3 options.
–How I Met Your Mother
Yesterday was my third date with The Potential Guy. We had talked Friday and then again Saturday. Even our phone conversations are easy going and light hearted, just like him. He came up with the idea of hiking, something I love to do. You know how after you hook up with someone and then see them again there is that awkward moment? You wonder, are they going to kiss me to break the tension or are we going to pretend we didn’t hook up and act normal? Do I hug him, do I touch him, or do I just stand there like an idiot and grin? Well he fixed that tense moment by hugging me and then giving me a huge kiss. We held hands on the way to the park, and all along the path we hiked. We had great talks, and we kissed and cuddled.
We ended up spending the entire rest of the day at my house, lounging around just being together. It was so right, everything from how comfortable I was around him without clothes, to the way would interrupt his own sentences to kiss me. We talked a bit more about that line, and agreed we need to get to know each other better before completely crossing it. We talked about how we both really like each other, and we want to see where this thing goes. That night I had a lot of trouble sleeping again. I laid awake and worried that I wasn’t ready for this commitment. It wasn’t PG at all. He’s fantastic. What I was worried about is when you fall for someone, and all of a sudden it matters so much whether or not they call you. It matters what they are thinking, and if they really in fact do like you.
Today I can’t get it out of my head that this guy has major potential. I think the biggest potential he has is to break my heart. I’m not sure if I’m ready to take that plunge. I guess I will cross that bridge when I get to it though. In the meantime, I’m content to replay yesterday’s date over and over in my head. The way he looked, the way he smelled. The way he held me when we went to sleep. I can’t help but check my phone every few minutes to see if he’s going to call. I hate and love this part all at the same time.